Happening for a Reason

No matter what religion I was following at any one moment the one belief I always carried with me is that everything happens for a reason. The other is that God works in our lives in the most subtle ways. Here recently I noticed one of the way God is working in my life.

I've gone to Vintage only a couple times because I've gone to Springfield to help my mother and missed church. However, each of these gatherings was preceded that week with some crisis in my life. These crises always seem to prepare me for the weeks lesson.

This week I had a crisis which was discussed a few entries back. I didn't know what inside me was authentic or fabricated. That I felt hollow. That I wanted God to tell me who I am and who I am supposed to be. As usual the message of the sermon today answered my questions and calmed my mind on the subject.

I know now that I have the responsibility to be God's representative on Earth, that I must represent him to the best of my ability and to do it with dignity and respect for my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. That he gave me everything I need to be capable of being what he created me to be. I was always me underneath, just have to stop changing myself to suit my circumstances.

Today's message rang a bell with me because it shows me yet another way of showing the "lost" like myself that Christians are not all judgemental and hypocritical. There are many that live like Christ with love and compassion for all, especially those who hurts others including ourselves. Those we must love the most.

I began to ponder on all the people who have hurt me in my life. If I were to face them today, could I love them? Or would my anger win the day? Could I represent God, or would Satan enter and take over? What about the people I hurt? Could they love me if they faced me? Could they be like God and Christ and love me despite the pain I caused?

I honestly, can't answer these questions. All I can do is live everyday as God's ambassador on this earth. To be the "apostle to the lost" and bring them the love that they deserve as our brothers and sisters.